. . . rambling thots . . .

i'm trying hard to be my happy-self today, tapi benda nih kept bugging me.

entah la... aku dah tak tau dah nak buat camana lagi...

it's hard to please people. and sebenarnya aku dah tak larat dah nak jaga hati orang.

apakah? makan hati pasal aku refused to dengar pasal Scheme yang diorg join tu?
million times dulu pun dah bgtau aku tak nak.
sebab tu nak makan hati ngan aku?
APAKAH???

seriously? makan hati pasal aku cancel lunch date becoz i had to settle stuff with my house previous owner?
owner tu yang tukar plan last minute.
sebab tu nak makan hati ngan aku?
SERIOUSLY???

sebenarnya, aku tak kisah sgt kalau takat kata makan hati ngan aku.
aku boleh anggap macam benda tu tak pernah jadi.
aku boleh mintak maaf kalau diorg nak.

tapi, is it really necessary to say "tak hadap sangat nak gi rumah" aku???

coming from people yang ko ingat ko leh depend on...?
coming from people yang ko ingat ko closest to...?

siapa yang patut makan hati sebenarnya?
cerita sikit?
cerita sikit?

tak pe la...
kalau itu yang diorg rasa, aku tak ley nak buat apa-apa...
kalau itu yang diorg pikir, aku malas nak buat apa-apa...
kalau itu yang diorg nak buat, aku dah tak kuasa nak buat apa-apa...

come to think of it, this has happened before.

so, is it me?

if it is, i guess, honestly, i'd rather be alone.
kurang sikit nak jaga hati org, kurang sikit nak buat dosa kat org.

My life statistics:-

• 60 by 6
• max 1000 in 08
• in E at 35

Oh by the way, my phone is in it's crazy stage right now. Well, actually not the phone, the problem lies with the SIM card. Am thinking of getting my old number with the other SP soon. But since they've already canceled the line, I have to see if the number's still available for re-registration. Mintak mintak la ada lagi...

Another thing, the Internet in my office has also gone cuckoo!!! Last two weeks, it was nearly impossible to access any external sites. Last week, the connection was slower than a snail. This week, whenever I log in into i.e. Friendster, Blogger I kept going into someone else's account. No matter how many times I cleared the cache,cookies etc...!

And to add salt to the wound, our company's email is also having problem...

So, in short, you might find it really difficult to get in touch with me this past few weeks and perhaps the next too...

Fortunately, we have WiFi in the Cafetaria! So, here I am, sitting and blogging from the Cafe... But I could only come here at 5pm the earliest... I do have other things to do, you know... I'll try to find the time even with the current workload.

Well, what I'm trying to say here is that, in case you have anything urgent to tell me, just leave a message in the comment section or drop me an email. I'll get back to you as soon as I can.

Ciao Bella!