. . . rambling thots . . .

I am at the Co's training center, surfing the Net via WiFi and waiting for my download to finish (it's currently 52% completed). Had to come here for a meeting.

Two things I like coming here.

1. I can use the Wifi without having to move from my workplace. Cuz you see, in the Co's HQ, WiFi are only available in the Cafe and in our KMC. None in the departments.
   
2. I'm away from the phone and no need to attend to user's problems with the systems. It's ok if they're simple to fixed. But hate those that the root cause are unidentifiable and vague.
3. I can ask for a room to sleep during lunchtime. You see, this place has hostel to room staff who are on trainings i.e. on-boarding etc.
4. I can claim for mileage.
   

Things I hate about coming here.

1. The traffic coming in and out of the place is terrible. Not just before and after office hour. It's all day long!!!
2. I don't have time to resolve problems that I really need to attend to!
   

But after today's meeting, I believe I'll be coming here more often as the team's agreed to meet up every week in our effort to improve our system.

However, I'm planning to ask them to rotate the meeting venue between here and HQ. It would be better this way.

Now that it's gonna be weekly, I'm just wondering whether I can still claim for mileage...

?

That said, I just remembered that I'll be coming here again Monday for another meeting on another matter.

ps: my download status is still at 58% (but the signal is already at 100%) and people here are already going back and I'd be all alone!!! s@$%^@$!!!

my cousin and i went to LowYat yesterday. i decided to buy an external hard disc to store all my personal files that are currently residing in my office's notebook.

there were so many shops to buy from. i couldn't decide. and we only had several hours before they closes. we stopped at several near the escalator but too many people. the shop that we bought the items from is located further inside and was less crowded, so more personal attention! heheheh...

tried to look for SEAGATE but it seems that most of the vendors have ran out of it. instead, i bought HITACHI 120GB SATA with a COOLERMASTER USB2.0 casing. all in all RM310. ok lah kot....

am not sure whether it's good enough but i bought it based on my colleague's recommendation.

alang-alang i was in LowYat, i did think of recceeing for SLRs. but again, limited time and we were already tired. so, maybe one of these days, i'm gonna go there again (hopefully with the money to buy), take my own sweet time and finally buy it (preferably, cheap!) !

Eversince the start of the new year, I don't think I've accomplished much, in terms of my work tasks.

I've got several items from last year that is still pending and waiting approval from the Management, and due to the Server and DB admin migration excercises, applications are queuing up to be tested. Not to mention the almost frequent calls received from users reporting of the problems they encountered.

And yet, I'm still surfing and bloging....

Definitely not efficient of me!

I just don't feel like doing them...

So, how do you keep yourself motivated with your work?

I think it's just me. Not having enough discipline for it.

Looks like another item in my wishlists is about to go down the drain...
Well, not entirely though.

You see, I was thinking of buying an SLR this month by applying for that AEON Easy Payment scheme. But I need to settle my CC debts first because otherwise my AEON application might not get through due to my sort-of-bad-credit history...

My plan B is to apply for the Co's personal loan, which actually is much better than any of the easy payment schemes offered outside, with lower yearly interest and easier payment method (salary deduction).

After calculating Plan B, I rethink my options. Why?
This would have me paying in total about RM800 (at least) monthly for my KoOp loans. Arrrgghhh!!! The thing is, this amount includes my payment for the previous loans that I applied also with KoOp. And, no, RM800 is not purely the loan repayment. It includes my contribution to the KoOp.

If I was to apply for the new loan this time around I'd have to increase my contribution amount to RM200. This will be put into my KoOp account and at the end of the day I will receive dividents and if I was to quit the KoOp (given I've cleared up my Loan payment), I can take out the entire contribution amount (from the date I join til end).

So, in the end I will also get the profit from it.

But, it's just that I think, with all the other monthly deductions I have to make, RM800 is just too much for me right now.

The main reason why I wanted to buy it was because of my friend's wedding that'll be held next week. She asked me to take photos for her. I've already engaged Roy's photog service, as the main photographer. However, I want to be able to snap some decent photos myself. That's why I thought it would be high time for me to buy the long due SLR.

I don't know...

I'm still gonna go to LowYat and Bukit Bintang just to compare the prices.
And I've also inquired my cousin about the possibility of getting the quotation from her X-company's supplier, which she is still in contact with. She said they could sell the stuff I want at the cost's price. I guess that would be cheaper a bit la...

Yeah, well....

We'll see how it turn out.

I'll put an update on this matter soon enough.

If I finally decide to make that purchase, then comes another difficult question. Which Brand/Model to buy?

If I'm not limited by budget, I'd go for Canon EOS 350D. But I do have to bare in mind that in future if I want to buy the accessories, it's really gonna costs me!

With limited budget, I'd go for Nikon D40x perhaps. It's cheaper, both camera and accessories. But of course, quality not quite as good as the images produced by Canon la...

Quel dilemme!

On the other hand, I have good news. You might be a bit confused about it though cuz I'm not gonna tell it straight. Yesterday, I checked, 2 has change to 4, in 5.

Well, that's yesterday. I'm gonna go to chez cousine to check again... heheheh...

2 down.

at least 8 more to go!

kanbate-ne!


Poison
Sung/Lyrics by: Sorimachi Takashi
Composition: Inoue Shinjirou
Arrangement: Yoshida Ken

itsu made mo shinjite-itai
Always, I want to keep believing...

saigo made omoi-tsudzuketai [1]
Until the very end, I want to keep thinking...

jibun wa ikiru imi ga aru hazu to
that there has to be some meaning to my life.

sameta me de waraikakete'ru
Smiling with a cold glare

tamashii wo okasareta yatsu
Do guys who have had their very soul violated

namida wo nagasu itami wa aru no kai?
really feel the pain of shedding tears?

iitai koto mo ienai konna yo no naka ja
In this kind of world where you can't say what you want,

Poison


ore wa ore wo damasu koto naku ikite-yuku [2]
I'll go on with my life, still being true to myself

Oh Oh


massugu mukiau ima ni [3]
In this moment we face it head-on,

hokori wo motsu tame ni
we have to fight

tatakau koto mo hitsuyou na no sa
in order to keep our pride.

kaidan ni suwarikonde
Sitting on the stairs,

owaranai yume no hanashi wo
we went on talking of unending dreams

yo ga akeru made katari-tsudzuketa
until the break of dawn.

sarigenaku kisetsu wa kawari
The seasons change casually

muishiki ni shisen wo otoshi
I unconsciously drop my eyes

nagasareru koto ni narete-yuku no ka
Am I really getting used to being swept along?


chiisa na yume mo mirenai konna yo no naka ja
In this kind of world where you can't have even small dreams,

Poison

jibun rashisa zutto itsudemo suki de itai
I want to always, always be able to like being who I am.

Oh Oh


jiyuu ni ikite'ku hibi wo
I want to cherish

taisetsu ni shitai kara
each day I can live freely, so

ikitai michi wo ima arukidasu
I'll walk whatever path I want.


kitanai uso ya kotoba de ayatsuraretakunai
I don't want to be manipulated by filthy lies and words.

Poison


sunao na kimochi kara me wo sorashitakunai
I don't want to turn away from my true feelings.

iitai koto mo ienai konna yo no naka ja
In this kind of world where you can't say what you want,

Poison


ore wa ore wo damasu koto naku ikite-yuku
I'll go on with my life, being true to myself.

Oh Oh


massugu mukiau ima ni
In this moment we face it head-on,

hokori wo motsu tame ni
we have to fight

tatakau koto mo hitsuyou na no sa
in order to keep our pride.

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[1] Or "feeling" or "dreaming"
[2] Literally, "not deceiving myself"
[3] "ima" (now) is the reading given for the kanji for genjitsu (truth, reality)

i'm targeting to clear up my credit card debt by end of this month.

i hope i'll achieve it.

why?

cuz, i want to buy that SLR using installment payment scheme, if any.

i'll start recceeing for it soon...

i almost didn't come to work today.
last night was feeling a bit feverish and couldn't sleep.
kept turning left and right and whichever position possible to get some sleep.
in total, i think i only managed to get 1 hour of it.
however, i woke up feeling fresh and am very energetic this morning.
weird...

anyway...

weighed myself yesterday and got the shock of my life.
the 5kilos i managed to loose the first half of last year came back with another 2additional kilos!!!

arrghh!!!
i'm in a desperate mode now.
am willing to do whatever possible (within budget) to shed off those 7kilos and insyaAllah more.

luckily i have people around me that is also dieting.
sometimes, eventhough you don't have the discipline to get through it, but with people around you giving the necessary support and encouragement i'm sure it's within your grasp.

eversince i was a teenagers, i never weighed less than 55kilos.
i was never the skinny type. not that i want to be.
but, being able to go to your favorite shop and buying the first clothes you like or easily fitting into the pants/jeans... that'll be bliss...

don't get me wrong.
i'm not THAT fat. just, how do you say, with a little extra baggage.
right now, i'm about 70ish kilos.

i don't know why, but these last two months, my appettite has gone up the roof.
especially when i go to my cousin's house.
rice is my main target. rice with fried egg, or rice with fried chicken or even rice with just the steamed veggies...

so, today's my second day dieting.
YES. it's crash dieting.
i know, i know. it's bad for my body.
but, i promise, it'll be just for a while.
once i get back my momentum, i'll start going back to the gym.

for the meantime, this is the only method.
i hate the "chicken wing skin" on my arms...

Received this sms from a dear friend of mine sharing a very wonderful news indeed!!!

"Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Illahi kita dah disahkan pregnant 7 weeks. InsyaAllah dapat baby merdeka! Terima kasih atas doa kalian...."

They've been wanting to get pregnant for about, i guess, 10 years ago. My friend, she's received so many tips, that she said, she can make a book out of it. hahah!

Whenever we meet her, we try our best to avoid talking about how many children this or that person already has, or who's preggie. Even if we succeeded avoiding it, she'd be the one asking.

Yesterday, after receiving this news, i immediately dialed her number to wish her Congrats! She said I was more excited than the mother-to-be herself. hehehe... just sharing her joy. I guess she's just trying to keep her calm until the bundle of joy has actually been delivered.

Here's hoping to her safe terms and the delivery of a healthy new addition to her family!

To Amnah, "It's about damn time!"

\(^ v ^) /

one tip for all of us

if you plan to go on a holiday and also have to attend a training back to back, which will preceed the other? not priority-wise, more to its arrangements.

from my very own recent experience, better have that holiday after the training or whatever things that might require lots of your energy (physical and mental).

otherwise, you'd be like me. really feel tired and i can't really concentrate on the training...

at least after the training, you can have that holiday for relaxation and pampering...

eversince my last (one and only) trip to France, I've fallen in love with those vintage posters.

especially those with the Moulin Rouge and Varga/PinUp girls. S-e-x-y.
and those adverts of Coke, Bally's and cover of Life and Vogue are really retro!

i like it so much that i wish i could have them all framed in my house!

the ones i have


the ones i WISH i have





i guess that's why i'm also drawn towards Constance's drawings.

ps: i'm having a bad headache...

these 2 women are my icons! they're not only the pride of the Nation but also us women!

To achieve their current stature, definitely require lots, lots, lots of hardwork and perseverence which I don't think i'll ever be able to do...

Asian Sportswoman Of The Year 2007	Top Global Central Banker for 5 Consecutive Years

... my 2007 fixations
these are my ratings of the Dramas I've watched.

Legend:
Good. OK-lah /Haven't watched. Waste of my time.


JDorama

Hero


Hero Special


GTO


GTO Special


Bleach


Bleach Movie


Mukodono!


24Hours Emergency 1


24Hours Emergency 2


24Hours Emergency 3


Nobuta Wa Produce


Hanazakari No Kimitachi E


Queen of Lunch Time Cuisine


Yamato Nadeshiko/Perfect Woman


Story of One Century


Hana Yori Dango 1


Hana Yori Dango 2


Beautiful Life


With Love


Engine


Karei-naru Ichizoku/The Grand Tribe


SoDorama

Coffee Prince


Goong/Princess Hours


My Name is Kim Sang Soong


Witch Yu Hee


One Fine Day


Full House (borrowed)


Spring Waltz (borrowed)


The VineYard Man


Jumong/Prince of the Legend



Taiwan

Silence (borrowed)


for more info on individual drama, you can go to AsianDramaResource.

PS: come to think of it, rather than listing and reviewing this down, I'd better do the listing for my works that are still pending!!! heheheh...